For the first time in my life I'm not dreading the thought of spending the rest of my life as a single person. As almost anyone else I'd prefer NOT to be alone and to not have any children, but slowly I've come to accept that it might perhaps be the path I will have in this life and with time I'm okay with that. Maybe its because I've gotten used to my independence, being able to go home and not have to worry about getting dinner on the table, fighting over which television show to watch or having to talk to someone when I'm not in the mood... or dealing with someone else's crap. It gets lonely but ultimately I like being alone. And honestly, the thought of having to get to know someone from scratch and the whole dating process is just too daunting and too much of a hassle for me. If I were to end up with someone, I'd prefer to be friends with him first, become his best friend and then take it from there.

For too long I've been living my life based on what my worth is to someone else. How much THEY valued ME. Now I'm living for myself and giving value to myself. It doesn't matter anymore how much value people place on me - sure, I care what they THINK of me but that's it. I am ME. I am worth more to myself than I could possibly be worth to anyone else in this world. My parents certainly think I'm worth a lot to them, but if I don't think I'm worth a lot then what does it really matter?

My life and my worth will now be based on who I am, what I accomplish and the relationships I build around me. Not by what man I have in my life and how much he values me. I am my own person and I live by my own terms and standards - no one else's.

I wonder what was going through his mind and what he might have been going through in his own life when he wrote this song two years ago... and I wonder how it was originally meant to be played, rather than this version which was intentionally toned down to fit in the movie. There are such strong emotions flowing through the words - angst, self-deprecation, love.